its that monday post...

I was so unwilling to come to work today that when dad woke me up this morning, I was wondering why is he waking me up so early on a Sunday morning. And then I got pulled back into reality when he told me its already 8. And I remembered I have shitloads to do today as I will be on leave tml and on wed for POV (YAY!!) and I better get my ass to office early. :(


Just “purposely” misplaced the receiver of my office phone cos its irritating to have the office phone ringing and ringing when im having my lunch. Don't people know there is something called lunch time?? Anyway, am in a rather anal mood now.


Yesterday I broke record and sat still for a freaking 6 hrs. for someone who cannot even sit still for a 1.5 hr movie, that is quite an achievement. Was at the salon to perm and colour my hair and the whole ordeal lasted me 6 hrs. and my only entertainment throughout was sms-ing from net. Fell asleep a few times and tried to meditate as well but its almost impossible with the dong dong chiang CNY songs and hair dryer blasting in the background.


By the time I left the salon, I felt that my bum must have expanded by 2 inches from all the sitting and pressure asserted on them. Haha. Thank god the driver came to fetch me to YT’s place. Cos im really tired from all the sitting.


And when me and yvonne meet, we can really talk. Yesh. We talked for abt like 5 hrs. but I really miss chatting with her. We would chat non stop in office last time, so actually yesterday’s 5 hrs is nothing compared to then. Haha. I left their place at 1+, which explains why im so tired today. Keke.


Alright something brighter to brighten the Monday....


Tomorrow’s and wed’s POV!! Need to thinking what I want to achieve out of this POV and what are the problems I want to settle tonight. I think its really great that I’ll be attending this POV with sis and max and most importantly, momo.


I think im going to get a surprise this week, most probably thursday. How do I know? Cause somebody piu chui. Haha. We were talking on the phone and out of the blue he suddenly mentioned the word surprised.

me: what surprise?? Why u out of nowhere talk about surprise?
him: nothing.
me: what what what??
him: no lah. Nothing la.

Haha. Im anticipating what is it. Later in the day I asked him: actually u piu chui abt the surprise right? And he gave me that smile which tells me I hit bulls eye. Haha.


I can enjoy clean, oxgenated and energized water on the go!! Yipee!! I do not always have to carry a big bottle of KV6 water whenever I go out. :D :D :D


Ken and Michelle’s ROM. I seriously hoped I can make it in time to be their emcee. But nonetheless, I see that they have invited a lot of out poly friends. I sure have loads of catching up to do!! :)


And lastly, of course, CNY is coming!! :D

the big clean up

Reached home at 11+ last night and since there were no more VCDs to watch, I decided to spend my time on something more constructive, that is to clear my room. I decided that if I dun start doing bit by bit everyday, I will never have the time to spring clean my room. And so I spent about 2 hrs clearing my room. And within that short 2 hrs spend, I cleared a big load of rubbish, and most of them are not mine. I would have loved to throw away more stuff (not mine as well) but I was warned not to throw them away.


I am the type who throws everything away. Whenever I am packing my house, I will dump a pile of stuff to the “to throw away” corner and momo will be there saying: this one cannot throw, still can use. This one still very new, can give other pple, dun throw.


Like yesterday, while clearing one of the drawers, I found a big plastic bag of pens. And I threw the whole big bag into the “throw away” bag. Momo and sis asked me: the pens still can use one leh. U want to throw away ah. So I told them: this bag of pens was in this drawer for god knows how long. If I didn't clear the drawer today we wouldn't even know there is a bag of pen here. Seriously, if u need to find a pen now, will you go search the drawers for a pen or will you go and buy one?


Mum always says sis likes to keep everything (takes after yeye) while I like to throw everything. I guess its good this way ba, at least there’s a balance. Or else our house will be full of stuff liao. :p


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(helping my frens to do some promo)

CNY is coming!! have you cleaned your home?? have you decorated your place to usher in a year of wealth, prosperity, health and happiness??

Liven up your home with the CNY at atmosphere with hand made handicrafts!! From beautiful Ang Pow baskets to lanterns.

I have seen their works and their handicrafts are truely very pretty and very good workmanship!! and prices are reasonable too!!

And other than CNY ornaments, they do self made accessories too!! necklaces, rings, earrings. woohoo!!

check them out NOW!!

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Valantines' Day is coming... Wont it be great to put a smile on that someone special's face? and the best way to do it? SAY it with FLOWERS. and wouldn't it be good if you do not have to pay escalating price just because its V Day? Here's a place you can get a beautiful bouquet of flowers at the same norm prices!! I've seen the florists at work before. their flowers are really very fresh and their decoration is pretty and yet special. so it wouldn't look like the normal bouquet of flowers everybody else is holding...

p/s: if a gal says she don't want flowers on V Day, let me tell you she is lying!! Even if she don't fancy flowers, sending her a bouquet will definately bring a big smile to her face.

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Dong Kee Liam Gua

Yesh!! We finally finished watching winter sonata!! Yesterday sis and max decided to finish the last few episodes of the series at one shot. And I finally teared while watching winter sonata yesterday. Way way back while the winter sonata craze is in singapore, I heard so much review from frens that the show is very touching, they used up a lot of tissues watching the show. But throughout the show, I didn't find any scenes so touching that can make me cry. There are only scenes that made me so dulan that I swear. :p


Till yesterday... I just cant stop the tears from flowing down my eyes. I laughed so hard I cried. Haha.


We were watching the last few episodes and at some point, max got so frustrated he started spewing in hokkien (see, I am not the only one who got dulan watching the show). And so I said: u trying to do translation in hokkien ah??


And so me and sis tried to translate their conversations in hokkien but failed. So max took over and it was sooooo funny sis and I laughed till our stomachs ache and we were both tearing. Super funny, I tell you. Especially with all our bua tang zhui (half bucket full) hokkien standards. Especially funny were the translation of the names:


You zhen’s dad, Xian Xiu ~ Max didn't know how to translate Xian Xiu and sis said is Kiam Siew. I heard wrongly and I thought she said its Kiam Siap (hokkien for selfish).

Jun Xiang, 俊祥 ~ yandao Xiang

You Zhen, 有珍 ~ Wu Zhin

Xiang He, 翔赫 ~ Xiang Ho


A dialogue when Xiang He’s father was telling him the truth about Jun Xiang became like this:

俊祥不是先贤绣的儿子, 他是我的儿子!! becomes: Yandao Xiang mmh si Kiam Siap eh gia, ee si lim peh eh gia!!

既然俊祥心里还有有真, 有真心里也还有俊祥, 他们因该在一起 becomes: ki ran Yandao Xiang sim lai bin wu Wu Zhin, Wu Zhin sim lai bin mah wu Yandao Xiang, ee nang eng kai zo ji pu.


I think we can start translation services in hokkien already. Max told me: imagine you translate to hokkien in SCS. I told him if I do that, I will never need to serve as translator ever again. Haha.

things to do before the CNY

Its about exactly 2 weeks to CNY. And I dun feel the new year mood yet. Just that everywhere I go, I hear CNY songs and I find them very irritating. Especially when im out shopping. Seriously, the CNY songs dampens my shopping mood.


Ahhh.... But there are so many things that I need to do before the New Year. And I don't want to take anymore leaves cos I have already taken 5 days leave this month for POV. I need some time management here... I need to:

Re organise my wardrobe. Those who have seen the state of my wardrobe will know that this is a huge project. No easy feat ok.

Spring clean my room. Also a big project and no easy feat as well. Think I need to get some cabinets from ikea to store my pdts, my books, my bags.

Paint my room to my lucky colour. Has booked an unwilling painter liao. :p But seems like all weekends we are busy. Think might have to do this after CNY.

Change my bed sheets and curtains. Have to go buy bed sheets and curtains liao.

Accompany momo to go CNY shopping.

Help momo spring clean the house.

Do something to my hair. Should I straighten or perm?? Should I cut my fringe or keep it?? Any suggestions?? And also should I colour my hair?? Am thinking of dyeing it copper red or something with pink base.

Shopping for CNY clothes.


Hmmm... Time to do some time management and planning...

POV

I think its about time I blogged about this...


As most of you might have already know, last December, I went to Taiwan to attend this course, called Psychology of Vision (POV for short).


I dun think many realised but I hit a slump end of last year. I was unhappy with a lot of things happened and I had a lot of frustrations and grouches inside me which made me feel trapped and angry with life. And the worst thing is I dunno what im frustrated or angry about!! I went into 逃避 mode. I made myself very busy, going places but im actually doing nothing. Nothing productive. On the outside I am still the normal smiley me, but inside, I wasn't happy at all. Very often when I reach home, I will lock myself alone in the room (on the reason that im tired and I don't want ace to mess up my room) cause even playing with ace is unbearable. And I dunno what I can do to get myself out of that depressed state. I’ve tried different methods but they only elevated my emotions temporarily.


Till I went for Dr George’s session at KL and saw Richie, who has just attended 4 days of POV. Richie looked different. He looks radiant, he looks full of love. His words, his actions all radiate love. It probably sounds exagerating or mushy in words but this is how I really felt and this is the best description I can put down in words. Rich told us that there will be a POV in Taiwan for 2 days and encouraged us to attend. I was in 2 minds initially. What can I gain from this course?


And only till the short session that I had with Rich after we returned to Singapore, did I made up my mind to go for the course. That was about 1 week later and 1 week before the course. Rich asked me what I am unhappy about and that sets me thinking seriously. What am I really unhappy about. And WHY. I knew what I was unhappy about. But I didn't know the root of it or what I should do. So I decided to attend POV, to get my questions answered.


When we first reached Taiwan and while waiting for nick and the rest at the airport, Rich gave us a preview of what to expect from the course. He told us it will be a boring course, and not to expect any ra ra. Seriously, I was a little scared inside. How will I react?? Will I be emotionless again?? I really don't know. But I decided not to think too much about it and just go with an open mind.


The first day of the course, when I saw 张老师, she is so loving, so full of love. Nick teared the moment he saw her. When the first focal point was chosen, when he was sharing his problem, I didn't feel a slightest trace of emotions. But when he was at the part where he was accepting his father, I broke down. I never realised that I actually am needing recognition from daddy. Although I know daddy loves me deeply with all the things he has done for me but he is never the type who will ask me how I am faring in school, what course I am studying. I realised that I actually yearned for this recognition, this love from him so much since I was a child, which contributed to my sense of self worthlessness. But I have to accept it and let go. Because its not daddy’s fault. He probably is looking for recognition too which is why he couldn't give me any. Ye ye probably never gave him any too.


All in all, throughout the 2 days of POV, when every focal point relate their problems, I always think: this one doesn't relate me. But I was always hit at certain point and was hit the most at the most unexpected part. Through that 2 days of POV, I learned so much about myself and I learned to let go so many things. By the end of day 2, I felt truly happy, truly free, like a 6 yrs old child. All my questions were answered and I understood know why I fear commitment, why do I keep attracting the same kind of people into my life, why do I fear success so much, why all my relationships always ends up unhappy, why do I keep rejecting love and what I am running away from. Of course to heal these takes time and effort. But at least now I know where the root of my problem is and how to heal it. And with this, I have promised myself to give unconditional love, and not to fear commitment and success anymore. And yes, my life has been improving ever since im back. :)


Sis says that my face used to look :( when I sleep. But after I came back from POV, one day she walked into my room while I was asleep she said I looked less un happy. And I also told her about me needing her recognition. Something which I never realised I did. But im glad I told her. Cos we shouldn't be shy to ask for help.


If you ask me what is the best course I’ve attended in my life so far, I will say its POV. Because once the soul is healed, there is nothing we cannot do or achieve. And that is the state of true happiness. Isnt that what everybody is looking for? Happiness??


Am going for another 5 days of POV this month. I Cant wait. :)