merry merry xmas, my dear friends...
may all your wishes come true!! :)
im still halfway through writing my ROM post... i know its about 2 weeks since my ROM but am really tied up lately, and its a long long post... i wanna take my time to write it so i dun miss any details... :)
Monday, December 24, 2007
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
8 days...
Yes I know its been uber long time since I’ve updated my blog.
Hmmm... Just don't have the mood to blog or do anything. Keke. I guess im in the wedding/holiday mood. Keke. Cant imagine, 8 days later, I will be considered by the laws of Singapore, married. I can no longer classify myself as “single” when filing the maritial status in forms. I will have to move from YWD (Young Women Division) to WD (Women Division). I will be termed Mdm Peng or Mrs Sze (both sounds so old). And instead of my life, my ups, my downs, my dreams, my vision, my goals, they become our life, our ups, our downs, our dreams, our vision, our goals. :)
Till now, our ROM preparations have been smooth sailing. I have chosen my ROM dress. Initially I wanted a white or off white short gown but in the end I’ll be wearing a yellow flowy dress, which is very special and sexy. Keke. Will be going for fitting this Friday. Will try to see if I can take some pics. But then again, I think I want to keep some suspense so that everyone will WAH when they see me on that day itself. Initial impact ya know? ;)
Flowers are more or less settled. Called the florists to confirm our order just now. It will be a bouquet of white roses and urm cant remember wats the name of that flower with babys breath. Have requested for golden ribbons to match my gold coloured shoes. Am going down to the florist to choose the ribbons on thurs. :)
Found my perfect pair of shoes as well, at aldo. Perfect pair of strappies with “diamonds” coupled with the perfect thin silletoes with the perfect height (think its 4in tall). Though they don't have my size in silver and that's why I have to settle for the gold ones. But net and I think that gold matches my dress quite nicely too. :)
the perfect shoes... :)
Everything at the our solemnization venue has been confirmed, and the person in charge has been most kind. Initially I was kind of worried the actual turn out was more than what we budgeted for and the room we booked might not be able to fit. But now all have been settled and im glad that so many people are coming to give us their blessings!! I feel so loved that so many people are coming to shower us with their blessings. What more can I ask for? :) and Max will be back in time for my ROM as well and also my dearest “ka chng” (cousin) flying back australia with her 3 precious princesses the day before my ROM. So she will be coming too!! :) :)
8 more days.. in anticipation...
Hmmm... Just don't have the mood to blog or do anything. Keke. I guess im in the wedding/holiday mood. Keke. Cant imagine, 8 days later, I will be considered by the laws of Singapore, married. I can no longer classify myself as “single” when filing the maritial status in forms. I will have to move from YWD (Young Women Division) to WD (Women Division). I will be termed Mdm Peng or Mrs Sze (both sounds so old). And instead of my life, my ups, my downs, my dreams, my vision, my goals, they become our life, our ups, our downs, our dreams, our vision, our goals. :)
Till now, our ROM preparations have been smooth sailing. I have chosen my ROM dress. Initially I wanted a white or off white short gown but in the end I’ll be wearing a yellow flowy dress, which is very special and sexy. Keke. Will be going for fitting this Friday. Will try to see if I can take some pics. But then again, I think I want to keep some suspense so that everyone will WAH when they see me on that day itself. Initial impact ya know? ;)
Flowers are more or less settled. Called the florists to confirm our order just now. It will be a bouquet of white roses and urm cant remember wats the name of that flower with babys breath. Have requested for golden ribbons to match my gold coloured shoes. Am going down to the florist to choose the ribbons on thurs. :)
Found my perfect pair of shoes as well, at aldo. Perfect pair of strappies with “diamonds” coupled with the perfect thin silletoes with the perfect height (think its 4in tall). Though they don't have my size in silver and that's why I have to settle for the gold ones. But net and I think that gold matches my dress quite nicely too. :)
the perfect shoes... :)
Everything at the our solemnization venue has been confirmed, and the person in charge has been most kind. Initially I was kind of worried the actual turn out was more than what we budgeted for and the room we booked might not be able to fit. But now all have been settled and im glad that so many people are coming to give us their blessings!! I feel so loved that so many people are coming to shower us with their blessings. What more can I ask for? :) and Max will be back in time for my ROM as well and also my dearest “ka chng” (cousin) flying back australia with her 3 precious princesses the day before my ROM. So she will be coming too!! :) :)
8 more days.. in anticipation...
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
The ONE
Net and I dated for about 7 mths before he proposed to me and this dec, we will be together for 1 year. When I disclosed news that im getting married, many of my friends were surprised that we are planning marriage so soon. I always tell them: you don't need 2-3 years to know if the person is the one for you. if he/she is not the one, even if you are together for years doesn't make a difference cause he/she still will not be the one you want. If a person will change for you, he/she will do so within the first few months. If he/she is not willing, they will still be the same after 10 years.
But how to know if your partner is the one? When I went for Hanxuan 老师’s POV, a couple told me that they wanted to know if their partner is the one for them. And that's when I realised how do we know if our partner is the one for us. In the past when someone asked me how do I know if net is the one? I told them, you will just know. You will feel it. I couldn't put it better in words then, but now I do.
How do I know that net is the one??
Well, actually I do not know. When we first started, I wasn't even sure if I wanted a committed relationship. After getting in and out of the love game (I broke several hearts, and my heart was broken several times as well), I was really tired of having to go through the process of having to get to know someone, then realised that he is not what I expected to be, and all the quarrels and finally the break up. Net’s entrance into my life is actually totally unexpected cause the last thing I wanted back then was to get myself trapped with yet another relationship. Though I was happy when I was with him, but at the back of my mind I was always thinking: are we going to work out? Is he serious about me? Should I be committed or should I treat this as a non committal relationship? Hence, I didn't even dare to introduce him as my bf. When he sent me off to the airport, I introduced him as my “friend”.
With these questions in mind, I went to Taiwan for my 1st POV with Hanxuan老师. During one of the group exercises, I shared with my group that I think a relationship is a hindrance and will trap me of my freedom and time. I also shared that I don't know whether Net is the one for me. My group leader told me that I first have to make a commitment to the truth, to Net, to true love. And when I am committed, when I get back to Singapore, I will find my true love waiting for me, the person may or may not be net. If net is not the one, then my true love will appear. But I first have to have the willingness to make a commitment. And at the same time, I will not be trapped by the relationship. Instead, I will enjoy true freedom. I also realised why I never had happy relationships in the past because I have fear of intimacy, fear of commitment and lack of self worth. So when my relationship gets too good, or too close for comfort, I will do something to destroy it cause I feel im not good enough and to keep a safe distance.
And how true it is. When I came back to Singapore, I somehow just knew that Net is the true love for me, the one for me. In net’s words, he felt I wasn't committed to the relationship before I went Taiwan, but he decided to give me some time. And when I came back from Taiwan, he felt so much love from me, and that was when he felt that I was truly committed to the relationship. :)
If not for POV, I think I wouldn't dare to commit to him and eventually he will leave me cause he don't feel my commitment, or we will end up as flings. Haha.
So how do we know if our bf/gf is the one for us? First, we have to commit ourselves to the relationship. Do not expect your partner to commit first. We have to first commit. He/she will feel the difference when you are committed and if they are the one, they will commit too. If not, then the 2 of you will part on a good note, and your true love will come eventually. :)
For net and I, I think most importantly, we are both committed to our own healing and like with this, I am not afraid of anything that comes our way because no matter what big storm or big wave approaches us, we know all we need to do is to search within ourselves and heal. :)
But how to know if your partner is the one? When I went for Hanxuan 老师’s POV, a couple told me that they wanted to know if their partner is the one for them. And that's when I realised how do we know if our partner is the one for us. In the past when someone asked me how do I know if net is the one? I told them, you will just know. You will feel it. I couldn't put it better in words then, but now I do.
How do I know that net is the one??
Well, actually I do not know. When we first started, I wasn't even sure if I wanted a committed relationship. After getting in and out of the love game (I broke several hearts, and my heart was broken several times as well), I was really tired of having to go through the process of having to get to know someone, then realised that he is not what I expected to be, and all the quarrels and finally the break up. Net’s entrance into my life is actually totally unexpected cause the last thing I wanted back then was to get myself trapped with yet another relationship. Though I was happy when I was with him, but at the back of my mind I was always thinking: are we going to work out? Is he serious about me? Should I be committed or should I treat this as a non committal relationship? Hence, I didn't even dare to introduce him as my bf. When he sent me off to the airport, I introduced him as my “friend”.
With these questions in mind, I went to Taiwan for my 1st POV with Hanxuan老师. During one of the group exercises, I shared with my group that I think a relationship is a hindrance and will trap me of my freedom and time. I also shared that I don't know whether Net is the one for me. My group leader told me that I first have to make a commitment to the truth, to Net, to true love. And when I am committed, when I get back to Singapore, I will find my true love waiting for me, the person may or may not be net. If net is not the one, then my true love will appear. But I first have to have the willingness to make a commitment. And at the same time, I will not be trapped by the relationship. Instead, I will enjoy true freedom. I also realised why I never had happy relationships in the past because I have fear of intimacy, fear of commitment and lack of self worth. So when my relationship gets too good, or too close for comfort, I will do something to destroy it cause I feel im not good enough and to keep a safe distance.
And how true it is. When I came back to Singapore, I somehow just knew that Net is the true love for me, the one for me. In net’s words, he felt I wasn't committed to the relationship before I went Taiwan, but he decided to give me some time. And when I came back from Taiwan, he felt so much love from me, and that was when he felt that I was truly committed to the relationship. :)
If not for POV, I think I wouldn't dare to commit to him and eventually he will leave me cause he don't feel my commitment, or we will end up as flings. Haha.
So how do we know if our bf/gf is the one for us? First, we have to commit ourselves to the relationship. Do not expect your partner to commit first. We have to first commit. He/she will feel the difference when you are committed and if they are the one, they will commit too. If not, then the 2 of you will part on a good note, and your true love will come eventually. :)
For net and I, I think most importantly, we are both committed to our own healing and like with this, I am not afraid of anything that comes our way because no matter what big storm or big wave approaches us, we know all we need to do is to search within ourselves and heal. :)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Halloween
Nowadays when im bored, i like to take pictures on my hp and then add funny effects using the PhotoDJ application in my phone.
Since today is halloween, let me present some halloween pictures for your viewing pleasure...
me the kitty...
ace the prince of pirates
sis the angel...
and lastly,
max the mama shop owner...
HAHAHAHA....
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Since today is halloween, let me present some halloween pictures for your viewing pleasure...
me the kitty...
ace the prince of pirates
sis the angel...
and lastly,
max the mama shop owner...
HAHAHAHA....
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
hair
I got so sick of my long hair lately. If not for my big day, I would have snapped them off already. So most probably you will see me with long hair for another 6 mths and then its bye goldilocks.
bye bye long hair...
I already can imagine how light my head will feel. Maybe I’ll get an instant 1-2kgs weight lost. Haha.
And all the shampoo, conditioner, hair mask, treatment, water, time and money i’d spend to buy hair accessories I’ll save with short hair. ABUNDANCE!! And I no longer have stay up at night to wait for my hair to dry. I miss my short haired days. I’ve been keeping my hair long since 2001 which means ive been having long hair for 6 years le. Its time for change!!
i'll probably look something like this with short hair...
The other day I was asking net if he did think about how his wife will look like before and how much do I match his imagination. He said he imagined his wife to have long hiar, big eyes and all so I am quite a close match. So I’ll fulfill his dream of wedding a long hair wife... But only on the wedding day itself. Hahaha.
bye bye long hair...
I already can imagine how light my head will feel. Maybe I’ll get an instant 1-2kgs weight lost. Haha.
And all the shampoo, conditioner, hair mask, treatment, water, time and money i’d spend to buy hair accessories I’ll save with short hair. ABUNDANCE!! And I no longer have stay up at night to wait for my hair to dry. I miss my short haired days. I’ve been keeping my hair long since 2001 which means ive been having long hair for 6 years le. Its time for change!!
i'll probably look something like this with short hair...
The other day I was asking net if he did think about how his wife will look like before and how much do I match his imagination. He said he imagined his wife to have long hiar, big eyes and all so I am quite a close match. So I’ll fulfill his dream of wedding a long hair wife... But only on the wedding day itself. Hahaha.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
